This was so beautifully written, and captures much of what I've been experiencing.
This quote especially helped put words to something I haven't been able to articulate clearly:
"I’ve noticed that I find myself being drawn to more quietude, and to being around people who are comfortable with silence and eye contact – as though we’re mutually searching for that recognition of ourselves in the other."
There's a lot of "letting go" in this journey, but one that I don't see discussed very often is the social impact, where you may start to feel disconnected from friends, partners, and connections that are still tethered to the "narrative me". This process can be quite painful.
Thank you for the kinds words David, and glad that it resonates with your own experience.
In the time since I wrote this, I've also been on a "letting go" journey and developing a lot more sympathy for "narrative me" who, after all, still has to navigate this life on a relative level. I agree with you!
How to continue functioning in society after staring into the abyss has been a very real struggle for me. Staying motivated to earn income has been an especially painful process.
But I think I’m learning that it’s not about disconnecting from society and doing nothing. It’s about bringing your new state of being into everything you do and everyone you interact with, especially the people who haven’t yet embarked on their own journeys.
I love your style of writing, it’s so poetic and flowery and lovely! I’m going to have to look more into Kali, that’s interesting. That was all such a good reminder, we can all get so lost in the narrative so easily by those around us, helpful to hear a likeminded voice.
This inquiry resonates a lot with me and I enjoy how visual and metaphorical it was for you. Recently I’ve been feeling a bit less afraid about the choice between these two sides of me and feeling like the real work feels to be in the integration between these two. Be a mom and a tantric lover, enjoy my nest and go on unpredictable adventures from time to time. I’m curious where thinking about it takes us both :)
Yes Sandra!! I think there's something to be said that the experience of the void can come alongside anything else and doesn't require us to give up all the aspects of a worldly life too, although there are tradeoffs on time committed towards it.. at least that's how I currently see it
This was so beautifully written, and captures much of what I've been experiencing.
This quote especially helped put words to something I haven't been able to articulate clearly:
"I’ve noticed that I find myself being drawn to more quietude, and to being around people who are comfortable with silence and eye contact – as though we’re mutually searching for that recognition of ourselves in the other."
There's a lot of "letting go" in this journey, but one that I don't see discussed very often is the social impact, where you may start to feel disconnected from friends, partners, and connections that are still tethered to the "narrative me". This process can be quite painful.
Thank you for the kinds words David, and glad that it resonates with your own experience.
In the time since I wrote this, I've also been on a "letting go" journey and developing a lot more sympathy for "narrative me" who, after all, still has to navigate this life on a relative level. I agree with you!
Yes yes yes.
How to continue functioning in society after staring into the abyss has been a very real struggle for me. Staying motivated to earn income has been an especially painful process.
But I think I’m learning that it’s not about disconnecting from society and doing nothing. It’s about bringing your new state of being into everything you do and everyone you interact with, especially the people who haven’t yet embarked on their own journeys.
I love your style of writing, it’s so poetic and flowery and lovely! I’m going to have to look more into Kali, that’s interesting. That was all such a good reminder, we can all get so lost in the narrative so easily by those around us, helpful to hear a likeminded voice.
Thank you for the comment! How wonderful that you resonate, enjoy connecting with Kali 😊
This inquiry resonates a lot with me and I enjoy how visual and metaphorical it was for you. Recently I’ve been feeling a bit less afraid about the choice between these two sides of me and feeling like the real work feels to be in the integration between these two. Be a mom and a tantric lover, enjoy my nest and go on unpredictable adventures from time to time. I’m curious where thinking about it takes us both :)
Yes Sandra!! I think there's something to be said that the experience of the void can come alongside anything else and doesn't require us to give up all the aspects of a worldly life too, although there are tradeoffs on time committed towards it.. at least that's how I currently see it